What are you doing in my dream, Kim JaeJoong?

Damn! Senses OVERLOAD!

Ok, I don't know where this came from. I was just like 'Oh my god! What just happened? What is he doing here in MY dream?!'

Ok, so to give you a clearer picture and please no bashing or hate spams ok, I was just reading them not being an active participant and agreeing to everyone of them; I was stalking reading some forums lately where they talked about celebrity secrets. Some of them were really astonishing and while I was completely suprised, some of the users there were like, 'Yeah I already knew about it, doesn't take a genius to figure it out.' Wow then I must have been really clueless and ignorant of my their surroundings. Anyways, they soon started to talk about gay/bi/lesbian-ism in South Korea and since South Korea is a pretty conservative society, the worst these celebrities would have to face after coming out from their closet would have been being disbanded by their own family. And soon the topic of discussion followed YunJae - the holy of the holiest ships. They were talking about YunHo being gay but JaeJoong being a straight but only YunHo was the exception for him and what not. And one of the users there was very kind to post this link which had them slowly convinced that yes indeeed YunJae was for real, not for just some fanservice.

Thanks to that user, I ended up following that link and now it has me convinced that their relation runs deeper than that of a bond between brothers - lovers or not? And I don't know why all of a sudden there he was - Kim Jaejoong in my dream.

In my dream, I was in a very grand up-scale building - like the SM headquarters or whatever that is that has the fans waiting 24/7 right outside their building. I was in a hurry to get out from that building as the main important figure of that building had said that the building would close within the next 5 minutes seeing as there were some really important military figures and they needed to talk with them in private. Yeah, you ask me what are the military even doing inside an entertainment business? Anyways I was in a hurry to run down all the 5 flights of stairs seeing that I didn't want to use the lift - or more likely because I have lack of knowlegde on how to operate it. And just as I was running on my way downstairs, there he was - in a wheelchair. LOL. I know I was like What The Fish? I blame it on the overdose of King 2Hearts because he was using that exact wheelchair Lee Yoon Ji was using.



Forget the kiss, the wheelchair! The WHEELCHAIR!



I don't know how I knew him but it automatically came out from my mouth, "When are you coming?" I was more likely referring to my home. And let me tell you I ain't no Cassie or even JaeJoong biased in the first place, so I'm just as confused when I heard myself ask that question. I think my shoes were really slippery so it took a lot of control to stop right on time to turn around the corner and just then he had one of his hand out for me to grab. I managed to hold onto his fingers lightly. And I don't know what happened after that but I do remember my heart beating really fast, something about his face just then was too captivating. The only thing I remember while looking at his face was that he was really beautiful and admiration-worthy. And I remember asking myself in my head "Why are you like this? I like you." He smiled and then replied 'Later.' I don't know whether I leaned in for a kiss on the cheek or not but I do remember that what few people were looking at our direction could clearly figure out we were more than close to be really comfortable to be behaving like that in public but in the back of my head I knew for sure we were NOT lovers. I guess some really close friends who had no problem touching each other.

And then I remember running down those damned flight of stairs with him slightly smiling at me (I don't have eyes at my back but somehow I knew, it's a dream if you remember, some really illogical stuffs happen there.) And before I could continue cursing those long long stairs and resume my run my mom barged into my room and started nagging, "How long are you gonna sleep? It's 8 already." 7's the time limit in my house.

Ok, that was it. I don't even know why I dreamt of him. Maybe it's because I read a lot of that YunJae post and the gifs were an overload on my brain. But what I do know now is that I've been eyeing JaeJoong and the rest of then a real lot lately. Damn his movie - Code Name: Jackal, not that I've been able to watch it.

This post is just what I dreamt in my dream and not some work of fiction, I just wanted to share this really out of the blue experience with you guys. And for the rest of those who viewed this post I want to make it clear that I have nothing against South Korea or the gay/bi/lesbos there. In fact I support the fact that they choose to follow their own preference rather than plainly accepting what the society expects out of them. And the secret thread is not something you have to believe in, it's just that it sounds really logical if you look at it from an un-biased view

Till then later, earthlings..

Summer : Loving U - SISTAR's Summer Special

Oh gosh! Lately Sistar's been making their rounds in my head with their latest summer special 'Loving U'. It's really refreshing and light as compared to their other powerful and sexy concepts. And the 'oooh oooh' & 'loving u' part is so catchy! Love this comeback. It's nice and refreshing to see the stars not dancing in a glittery box once in a while and SISTAR's MV shot which was taken in the Hawaii full of nature and beach was really fun to watch. I know my review maybe kind of late but hehehe what to do, I'm a bit like this. Don't mind me, go ahead and enjoy the MV.

Also another reason why I love their MV (I love the song too but lets talk about MV) is because of no other reason but their sweet, cool and summer fashion. Pairing cropped tops with supa pastel colored shorts and riding rollerblades, the girls look ready to rock summer. There's this one shot where they are dancing lightly on the grass wearing rollerblades, it got me thinking "Areh! That rollerblades reminds me of Girls Generation's jacket shot during their Gee promotions." but I think Sistar rocked it better than GG. And they show them taking a avcation with all the girls campfiring, going on a ride all by themselves, it got me thinking again "Ah! I'd want to go on such vacations with my girls too and have the time of my life!"





Seriously what don't these girls have? The figure, the dresses sponspored and getting to work in the Hawaiian beach for their MV! Sigh! So these summer get ready to enjoy it with SISTAR's 'Loving U!'

I think they get a 5/5 for their summer special. Cause it just matches the appeal they were trying to work out, the fun that was needed to be displayed in the MV. Also the soft acoustic sounds not to powerful on the ears but just as light and cool well-matched for the hot summer season!

If you haven't watched their MV, here it is. Loving U - SISTAR Full with english subtitles. Enjoy!

Friendship Day!

Hey there all! Happy friendship day! On this day of rejoicing month-long or year-long friendships or maybe a having made new friends I thought why not consider some of the besties that've stood by one another in grief and joy, in sick and in health. It will not be in any order and I ain't gonna make it like any top 10 or 5, just random characters I remember. Oh yeah, it's anime I'm talking about! Hehehe! Now without any further ado, let's begin.

*Drumrolls*

Natsu Dragneel & Happy - Fairy Tail

The Fire Dragon Slayer and his flying blue cat. I love their friendship, it's just so hilarious watching Natsu run around recklessy and Happy always looking at things in a pessimistic way! The fact that Natsu gets sick while using a transportation but doesn't get any motion sickness while Happy is flying holding him with his paws, when asked why "Because Happy is not a transportation. He's a friend!" God, that just makes my heart melt. It's always so inspirational when Natsu stands up for his guild, his friends and even more heart-wrenching when the easily scared Happy is finally able to stand up to enemies. Have to give it to this fire breathing monster - scaredy cat duo. Literally!

Ash Ketchum & Pikachu - Pokemon

Oh, this really brings back memories! I remember loving Pokemon so much and playing those cartdrige games till my eyes blurred and rendered me unable to look at a digital screen without going blind for more than 15 minutes. One word for their bond - unbreakable. Always there for each other, made me laugh and cry, a round of applause for this electrifying duo who made it for more 14 seasons, I think! Pika-wiga!

Naruto Uzumaki & Sasuke Uchiha - Naruto

No matter how much of an ass Sasuke is or just how dumb but still so admirable Naruto is, their bond is something truly special. Ready to face the wrath of hell just to bring his friend back, that's Naruto for you. At the beginning I liked Sasuke and hated Naruto for being such an idiot but now my perspectives have changed. I admire Naruto for being a hero with firm beliefs ready to call himself a fool for prizing his friend over his mission and hate Sasuke with such burning passion for being obsessed with revenge. Still their bond which surpasses that of friendship acknowledging one another as brothers though they'll never admit it, it's just so pure. I've cried bucket loads of tears over their departure. And still hate Sasuke for it!

I don't remember much and don't think I'll be bothering either. So that's it, I guess!

Set : On this friendship day...

On this friendship day... by cloudy-day featuring silk shirts

Hey guys! First of all, Happy Friendship Day!!! YAY!!! Hahahaha! Ok, excuse that random bout of happiness I just suffered! I just thought since it's friendship day today, why not create a set for this occasion and lo and behold! I know, it may not exactly be so awesome but while I was making this set I was thinking about being able to go out for the day with my bestie, talking long walks near the beach (cuz God it's summer here and we don't have a beach! sigh...), hanging around trinket shops, eating ice-cream and whatnot! I was thinking of something casual yet summer and fun too. So I ended up with yellow top with one side knotted at the end. As for the long skirt, I had a hard time finding the right one for it. I kept on arranging it with so many shades only to remove it at the end and search for another one! I kept on thinking since it's a bright yellow would it be alright to match it up with a lighter shade of pastel or a little darker shade of blue! God, I think I went crazy. Anyways at then end I ended up with a flower patterned one. Initially I thought of a cropped t-shirt with a high-waisted skirt but then I thought again that naw why don't I use a long skirt for outdoors once. And also because god, I'm suffering from ugly uneven tans here! Life's a bish!!! Ok putting that aside, have fun this day dressed appropriately for summer. Not too much make-up, a sunblock, a dab of lipgloss and you're ready to go!!!

T♔ARA - Their Biggest Controversy...till now : Departure of Hwayoung

T♔ARA, a South Korean girl group who debuted in July 2009 is facing one of their their biggest controversies till now. Their group's name is inspired from the word 'tiara' with hopes that this girls will become the "crowned queens of the music industry". Well, currently at the moment they seem to be crowned for being the conroversies queens. During their pre-debut days they were named Super Rookies having trained for 3 years as a group already. However at the time of their debut two of the members left the group due to music differences, with 3 new additional members finally forming the official group with members - Jiyeon, Hyomin, Eunjung, Qri, Soyeon and Boram. However their group had a new member addition in 2010 during the release of YaYaYa. Their group underwent 2 new member addition again in 2012 making it a 9 member group.

However as of 30th July 2012, the CEO of Core Contents Media, Kim Kwang Soo announced that he has terminated Hwayoung's contract with the company making her a freelance artist hoping that she'll have a successful future. With her departure from the group and controversies including her bullying scandal, T-ARA has lost more than 6,000 of their official fans and as of now all hell has broke loose.

Now that we're done with the introductions and over with the insight, let's cut the crap and get on with the show. I've been a QUEEN's for as long as I can remember. The moment I saw Jiyeon in 'God of Study', I knew I was done for. That girl had me bewitched and that's how I got to know T-ARA. And I swear each and everyone of their concept till now has been refreshing, always breaking away from the stereotypical music the K-Pop industry has to offer and I love them for that.





When I loved T-ARA they were a 6 member group and I wasn't exactly happy when I found out that they would have a new member, Hwayoung. Kim Kwang Soo stated that she would be an assest to the group and gave her the postion main rapper while Hyomin still had that position. This only threw more chaos into the mix. During her debut, I found nothing special in her no matter how much other QUEEN's tried to like her, praising her talents while truth is many QUEEN's had a hard time accepting her. Let's be true, no one even noticed her until she cut her hair short for 'Cry Cry'. Even I only started accepting her as a member of T-ARA from her rap in 'We were in Love'. Finally I was starting to accept her, then KKS just had to cut her short.

It all started from T-ARA Budokan Concert in Japan where Hwayoung could not perform on-stage in all the performances and other members started tweeting about 'determinations'. The tweet was not exactly directed at anyone but netizens started speculating that that diss was made at member Hwayoung who could not perform with enough determination. Hwayoung tweeted back in reply saying she tried her best asking for help from God saying you're out there watching me right. It was then netizens went wild and started going through T-ARA's past videos and making screenshots of videos where it looked like member Hwayoung was being bullied.

In one particular video shot in Japan, Eunjung was forcing Hwayoung to eat rice cakes. While the other members were smiling and laughing, Hwayoung looked like she was about to cry. Another photo surfaced showing Boram damaging her umbrella. Natte Pann(I think the name was something like that) an online forum where people can just basically post anything recently had a post where that person was stating how she was a loner in the group refusing to reveal the group's name since she was sure people would find out right by their group name's initial. She told about how she was always an outcast and being timid and shy did not help her in approaching them at all. She also went on stating that when they're on the camera, everyone had their arms around her acting all-friendly but the moment they're away from it, they are back to being their cold-self. Neverthless to say it all makes perfect sense as to who the person is and to whom this complaint is for.

Kim Kwang Soo only states that Hwayoung's termination of contract was the sole decision of him and 19 of his staff members and they were awake the whole morning till 7 trying to make T-ARA realize that Hwayoung was no longer a part of them. He again states that whether the bullying is true or not doesn't matter, it's teamwork that should be put first. For these members who've practiced day and night, it's unfair that one member's selfish action can ruin the whole group's name. Also he's stated that if a member is in the group just for the fame of T-ARA and is not working hard for it, he'll remove her from the group. Talk about irony! Then what is Areum and Dani doing in  a group who already has 3 years of experience under their belt in the music industry?Also I'm not exactly satisfied with how he leaves the bullying matter unanswered telling that it's not important but teamwork is.

I agree teamwork is important for a group's rise to fame but isn't bullying just as harmful. When a member of the team is being bullied, doesn't it undermine her potential to give her whole as a member of that group? However our dear CEO still believes that leaving things poorly unanswered is the best solution to one's controversy. This has led to a group 'T-Jinpyo' being formed which means that they demand the truth from T-ARA with over 34,000 members joining as of till now. I'll say Hwayoung has a lot of people on her side.

But then KKS striked back by revealing her dark side stating that after their concert in Japan, they came back to perform in one of the music shows where Hwayoung was to rap sitting in her chair due to her leg injury. But right when they were to perform after 2 groups before them she refused to rap putting immense pressure on Eunjung and Hyomin who had little time to memorize their raps and as a result Hyomin ended up making a mistake during her rap segment. Also after the show ended and they were outside in front of numerous fans and reporters she threw her crutches on the floor and threatened to yell at her managers stating that she'll scream saying she wanted to go home. Bratty much? Many fans and managers have stated that they have not been strange to this behaviour of hers. Many staffs have cried stating their frustruations and saying they want to quit.

Kim Kwang Soo stated that fame for girl groups were important and these staffs who worked hard 24/7 driving car though being sleep-deprived, checking their make-up before every performance were more important since it was due to their hard work too that T-ARA are where they are at the moment. And these 19 staffs agreed that it was best that Hwayoung leave the group as her actions are hindering the group.

Some fans have even argued that Eunjung who's currently a permanent member in 'We Got Married' and is starring in 'Five Fingers' should be removed or else they won't watch the program. Comments like 'If she's so cold in real life then what's the good with acting?" and terms like two-faced have surfaced online. Honestly, isn't it a bit too much? Not beacause I'm a QUEEN's but do you guys even know the whole truth? Are you ready to judge a person you've known and supported for 3 whole years just upon some statements fed to you? How more immature can you be? At least wait until it's official. If she really is a mean two-faced bitch, then start your complaints!!!

Personally, I don't know what's going on behind the scenes and I can't say much but I feel like I'm being tied to a heavy stone and thrown in a lake. I'm desperately trying to clutch to life but these restrictions are binding me like crazy. I don't know whom to believe. If Hwayoung is really at fault then I think it's best that she leave T-ARA cause as a QUEEN's I won't stand back and watch as she hinders T-ARA and my JIYEON. But if it's really true, if the bullying and dislike for her is true, I don't know what will happen to me.

I'll just wait and let things fall into it's place. And I wish other people would do the same too rather than turning into an angry mob. But I still think no matter what the results turn out to be I'll still be a Queen's just the same. Wish them to overcome this obstacle as quick as possible and emerge with bonds even stronger than before.

Long live T-ARA!

The Muse in Winter

The Muse in Winter by telynor on polyvore.com

Ok, so this exactly isn't my work, so please stop those rush of comments. *giggles* You can clearly see that this work is done by telynor on polyvore. I haven't exactly asked for her permission for this but it's not like I'm claiming this as mine. I just wanted to write something about it. Hope she pardons me. It was just so beautiful I had to. The title, "The Muse in Winter" did not exactly help at all. When I first saw this I was awestruck. I was like "Did you seriiously not use any clothes or shoes or make-up or anything else while making it?" It's brilliant. The potrait's been made with varying shades and hues of iced blue, sparkling trinkets and sophisticated knots. It's really amazing. Just looking at the potrait, I got the feeling that she was like some beautiful fairy trapped in ice. More like preserved in it so that her beauty would never fade. I know doesn't make much sense but I'm a more of a person who believes in angels and fantasies. Hey, don't blame me for having such a childish mind, I like myself this way even more. She looks so cold yet so beautiful. Afraid that you'll burn in the ice if you touch her but still unable to contain your love for her. That's what I feel. And her headpiece, well that's what I'll call it since it doesn't look like tiara or a crown either, it's just as beautiful too. Like petals from lilac knotted together with sparkles, it's really beautiful. telynor did an amazing job. I wonder if a beauty like her truly exists in this world.

Red...

Red... by cloudy-day featuring skinny leg jeans

Hey there, didn't update for a while hehehe. Been busy with my driving and language classes and oh the lack of sleep is killing me and I hate those dark circles under my eyes. Makes me look hideous. Anyways, today I present you with my set 'Red.' Hehehe. I just recently colored my hair red. Not the starking Rihanna Red, it's a Rosiness Red but since my hair is a natural black, it looks a bit like a mix of purple and red, but I still like how my hair came out to be. I thought why not put together a set for people with red hair. It'd be fun and interesting to see how people wouls dress up just to suit their hair color. LOL. Anyways even though my set is clustered with reds, I chose a polka-dotted top and dark jeans to go with it. I chose a red suede boots though, cause I wanted to match it with the hair color. I tired my best to not make the set look clustered and packed but I guess I went a bit overboard, hehehe. Anyways, the message "Go paint the town red." LOL. With this vibrant, ferocious, hot-blooded and everything that's sultry color show them what you're made of.

Cool for the hot weather...

Cool for the hot weather... by cloudy-day featuring a grecian dress

It's a bit hot today, not the sweltering hot but the kind that has you giving off a light sheen of sweat. So yeah I arranged the dress with the weather in mind. Truthfully when I was making this set, I was thinking of the sandy beach with the warm sun shining on your back and the wind kissing your face. And yeah don't even think of trying to run on the muddy sand with high heels unless you want to fall over and over or get sand in your shoes, so I chose this cool aquamarine shoes. With this cool dress and matching shoes hit the nearest beach around you taking in sunniness and enjoying the paradise around you. You may even sip on a coconut water while doing so. Awwh, miss those.

Set : Cool and fab...

Cool and fab... by cloudy-day featuring slim fit pants

Ok so like a said a new post everyday. Hehe but now I think I can't make it everyday, a few days now and then maybe but I'll keep on posting, don't you worry. Today the weather is a bit cloudy. Kinda calm and relaxed. And so for a weather like today I thought it would be good to dress up like above. Personally I prefer shorts but lately I've found that a girl can look sexy as hell in pants too. So girls if you've got a great set of legs, it's time you show off. If you don't fake it, wear high heels but do practice walking beforehand. I know they say boys like girls who let their hair free but I think why not keep it neat with your hair in a bun. Add a cute bow to make it look chic. The top is cropped and at first I thought of pairing it with sorts but then I pants suited it better. A dab of lip gloss and you're ready to go.

Set : Comfortable at home...

Comfortable at home... by cloudy-day featuring a chiffon maxi skirt

Pink top
modcloth.com

Chiffon maxi skirt
sheinside.com

Crystal shoes
$55 - uk.accessorize.com

Bare Escentuals lip gloss
bareescentuals.com

I thought that from now on I'd post a set everyday as long as I think I can. I may not be diligent but I'll try my best. The set I publish each day will reflect on how my mood is at the moment. Today my set is entitled comfortable at home. Since it was rainy today though the rain stopped sometime during the rain, it got me thinking of those moments when I'm cosy and comfortable at home. Though this set may not look as cosy as a warm bed, I still find it comfortable. I haven't worn a long skirt like this once but I sure as hell wanna buy one. The long skirt in my mind is pretty comfortable and the feel of those smooth chiffon on one's legs must feel cool and warm at the same time. Pink and green are a match that can never go wrong. It's classic just like black and white. Well, that's what I think at least. So I paired it up with a pink top. A bun like that and you're ready to laze around on your comfy sofa sets.

Rainy Days...

Hey, been a long time since I posted something. Anyways I was thinking maybe I would stop blogging but then just yesterday one of my friends asked me for my blog account and I was like "How do you know I have a blog account?" He told me he saw me messing with blogs once in the computer lab in my college. So yeah, he made me ponder about blogging and again here I am. There's not much to blog about but I just thought since it's blogging lets just post whatever I see around me and lo and behold the topic today is "Rainy Days"

It's been raining quite a lot in my place. I mean not the heavy rain that takes away everything with it as it comes. It's that small rain that no matter how light always manages to get you soaking wet. It's always there in the morning when I wake up and throughout noon it dries out but then again in the evenings and nights it makes itself known once again. I don't have anything against it but seeing rain everyday, I don't know.... It's fun though, I'm the kind of person that likes to dance in the rain though I've hardly done that more than a few times.

It's on such rainy days like this that I love to drink a warm cup of hot chocolate and bury my nose into novels or watch TV, most likely an anime or a drama. Hehehe. Just thinking about it brings a warm feeling.

Too bad I need to go to my language class and then driving later on. Sigh. I have nothing against language lessons. I'm learning to speak Japanese so its pretty fun since I want to play japanese games that don't have english translation. It's the driving part I'm lazy about. The ground gets all muddy and your dress gets wet as I'd prefer to keep them dry and comfortable at the time. I wish the driving class gets cancelled. Well lets keep on hoping. It never kills to have a hope.

Well I guess it's just this at the moment. I'll be enjoying my short amount of cosiness and let you peple get back to your work. Later then!

Exo - Kris : Ever heard of perfection and his past

Howza yowsa, I'm really starting to get the hang of blogs since this is my second post already. Hahaha, anyways this second post is for our kris duizhnag. I know he's amazing and godly and perfect and whatever. I've seen his pictures on tumblr as I stalk each and every one of his pic as if my life depends on it. God, I'm so pathetic. But recently I found one new photo of him and seriously that picture took perfection to a whole new level. You hear me? "A WHOLE NEW LEVEL!" Damn it!

Above are those series of shots I was talking about. Just look at him! The guys not even bothering to pose, he's just coming out from his car and merrily on his way to wherever he needs to be but does he need to look this amazing even when just walking? Arrghh, I'm going crazy. Seriously if someone ever asked me to describe perfection, I'd simply state 'Kris Wu' and I'm telling you despite my serious obsession over him, I'm still not an Exotic. I'm not in denial, I'm telling the truth. Yes and the pictures are not mine, credit to those whom it rightfully belongs beacuse Duizhang and I live worlds apart. Okay not exactly worlds apart, what's wrong with making it sound so dramatic? We're just a few countries apart.

Also, recently I found out people talking about this in tumblr and it seriously got me worried too. Lately there have been numerous stalkerish fans of Kris who're digging his past and truth be said, that's quite rude. I mean come on how old are you people, still behaving like this? I know Kris has killer looks, the style and that swag but I can't say much for his personality cause he always has that bitch-face on but come on cut him some slack, will you? Of course as his fans, Dragons or Buffaloes, take your pick you'd want to know everything about him. Who wouldn't when it concerns their idol? Even I want to know how he looks like off-stage, how he really behaves around people but do you really think he will like it when he knows that people are digging up his past without his knowledge on that matter. You tell me. Do you like it when the whole world knows if your first kiss was with a toad or if you've farted countless times in public or that you barfed on your crush while playing spin the bottle? If he wants to tell the public, he'll do so in variety programs or during interviews.

I've seen numerous posts on him changing his names, his high schools, his supposed-tattoo and whatnot. Yeah, we like letting our imagination get the best of us most of the times but lets just keep it to that. We can always create and speculate rumours but lets leave the digging past behind. However if Duizhang says, "I dare you. Dig up my past as much as you can." that's an entire different matter and many fans will be more than happy to do so. See Kris, that's the price you pay for being so popular. So next time don't alright. But I guess its pretty hard already. Anyways, here I'll finish my post and the moral of the post today is "Don't intrude into other people's life."

Or else Tao will kick your ass.

Till then, stay beautiful.



K-pop : How it started and my Bias

Hello, people its me again. You may think again? when this is my first post. Well, stupid me, I only found out how this thing works after having posted 2 blogs already. The domain always kept on asking me for another name when I provided the one I already used before when I created a new blog. Seems like you can only put posts in your blog while I kept on creating new blogs after blogs while posting new things. Anyways, lets put aside my complaints and look at my new post. My bias in K-pop and how it all started.


It was one fine summer day and I was just strolling the park with an ice-cream in my hand relishing its coldness.... Ok sorry just kidding. Many of you maybe already aware about T-ARA since they are a part of Hallyu wave now. Well I was their fan before they even became one. You may ask why when their debut song Lies did not even do so well. Well there's no other reason than *drum rolls* Ji Yeon.

I love her. She's so beautiful and talented. She can dance, sing and act, all in all a triple threat. However I was not aware of T-ARA at that time. Hell, I wasn't even into K-pop. And that's how it all started.

All my classmates would gush about how cute these Korean idols were and how sweet and romantic their movies were. I would always facepalm myself when they'd start talking about Korean boys.  I did not know what they found so interesting, all I could see were a bunch of pretty faces grouped together that couldn't sing to save their life. Their group dances that held delicate and whimsy moves did not help at all. Furthermore, the first girlgroup I saw was Girl's Genertaion. The moment I saw them I was like Yeah I know your group name is Girl's Generation but you don't need to put a whole generation of them to prove it. However, I started watching KBS channel (I had Dish TV at that time and it aired KBS now I don't because Dad said it was too expensive and now we have cable, oh hail almighty) and I saw an interview of Boys Before flowers, I guess it must have been 2009 since I saw Wonder Girls hit song "Nobody" being performed everywhere. I only caught the last bit of their interview and the interviewer was asking those F4 boys to wish Koo Hye Sun good health since she'd been caught in a car accident and at the end they showed the intro of Flower 4 in BBF. That short 1 minute was all that was needed and the next thing I knew I was surfing the net about them. 1 year later, in 2010 during October my whole classmates came out to celebrate my birthday for me. It was belated though since my birthday was on an exam's day but I guess we did celebrate it after 2 days. After lunch we just went to MusicMania and lo behold what I saw, "Boys Before Flowers". Before my friends could even comprehend what had happened I snatched it away from the shelf so fast scared someone else would take it away. My friends only raised their eyebrow at this. That day I went home and watched it with my whole family minus my Dad since he's not made up for drama stuffs and guess what, it was an epic hit. My whole family loved it, my elder sis, my lil bro and even my mother who's not much into Korean stuffs. And from then on opened the gateway for K-pop into my world.


Before I knew it, I was watching God of Study and I fell in love with Park Jiyeon. Even as a girl I found her so amazing and beautiful. I felt proud watching her do so well even though I was in no way related to her neither her group nor her company. I just felt so content watching her popularity soar and seeing praises come along her way. I guess I became her fan after GOS. Many people even questioned her singing talents. I felt so angry at that time, why would one even be chosen as an idol if they weren't even good at singing? She released a track "Rolling" for the OST in GOS and yes I felt so happy seeing those haters stupid dumbstruck face. It was beautiful (her song you idiot). Her voice was light and fragile, she was more suited for ballads and slow songs and "Rolling" just proved how amazing she could be at them. Soon after followed, "Falling" in Jungle Fish 2, another amazing song. Then she got accepted into Dream High 2 and at that time when I found about it I was so happy I thought I could kiss a frog and turn him into a prince even though I'm scared senseless of frogs. That drama just proved it more how worthy she was for the title of an idol. She got to act, sing and dance and make the audience laugh along with her and for that Jiyeon you always have the number one spot in my heart. No matter how much I liked her, praised her, was awed by her, I could never find it in my heart to envy her. I guess this is what happens when you love an idol so selflessly. *cough* Please do excuse my self flattery *cough* Yes people the only reason I turned to K-pop was beacuse of Jiyeon and now I'm glad I did. All those meaningless words now make sense tome and no matter how whimsy those moves look now I know how hard it must be to capture the whole audience with their song and dance at the same time. My forever bias T-ARA'S Jiyeon and I guess for that very reason I don't have another favourite girlgroup or a boygroup for that entire matter. Whenever I'm asked which K-pop group I like I can't think of other names besides T-ARA.


Now that we have the girlgroup cleared lets talk about the boygroup. I could only be enchanted by boygroups for a short time and then I'd break away from the spell, easily bored. Now many K-poppers out there must be already aware of the fact that SM released a new boygroup this year, EXO dividing it into two sub-units: EXO-K and EXO-M focusing both the markets in Korea and China with EXO-K heading for the Korean market and EXO-M the Chinese. Quite an effective method to increase your stocks and shares should I say so SM. Anyways everyone must have their more than one bias in EXO since it's a 12 member group. At the moment I currently have only one and guess who it is. None other than our *drum rolls* Kris Duizhang, yes the smexy charasmatic leader of EXO-M.

Since when were males so beautiful, the guy's not even bothering to pose?

 The moment I saw him I was like Is this guy for real, Are you sure he exists? Seriously how can a creation be so beautiful to the point that you feel goosebumps breaking on your skin just by looking at a picture of him. I repeat "A picture" not even a bloody close-up of him in real life. I wasn't even into EXO with NU'EST already having my attention for boygroup of the year 2012. Yes its true that SM is one of the Big 3 in the entertainment industry in South Korea but the fact that they treat their people more as a money making machine rather than an artist made me despise SM. The break-up of TVXQ and the fans disappointment did nothing but only fuel up my dislike for them more. The fact that they were using the internet and their money to release uncountable teasers unlike any other boygroups while at the same time also being an influential name did not help at all. All I could think was money hungry villains.  So when I first saw EXO's What Is Love the word dumbstuck would be an understatement. I was more than that. It just did not make sense. How could SM pull off such an amazing boygroup? That godly pic of Kris walking around dressed in all white did not help the fangirl in me (My favourite color is blue and white). When he looked into the camera with his piercing grey eyes I knew I was done for and now sadly I have to say I troll on every picture of Kris I can find tumblr. Pathetic, I have no life at all. Even if I did before, Kris took it all away. Blame him for ripping away my sanity into tiny shreds where you can't even find those ripped pieces and put it back together. Now even though it hurts my pride, I'll have to admit EXO is one group to look out for. I respect their songs and adore them for their heart-wrenching vocals and beautiful lines. I have to wait and see for how long this spell takes place and breaks off?


It's amazing how you can have so many biases but feel so different about them. Look at my case. I'm so proud of Jiyeon and as a result whenever she's paired up with other male idols I feel happy. Giddy even. Maybe I'm too happy for her. But at the same time when Kris is paired with another girl, i don't like it. For some reason it doesn't feel right. Maybe it's beacuse I'm a girl. I don't know. Since both are my biases shouldn't I feel the same way about both of them. But one thing I do know for sure, no matter how many artists they are paired up with I'll always feel that they deserve someone much much better until they both choose someone from their own free will. Hehehe, thanks for bothering to read my post. Later people. Till then, stay beautiful.